Bisexual Frustration

 

Bisexual Frustration

It’s so frustrating desperately wanting to suck cocks but not being attracted to men.

I wish I could look at a guy at work or in the supermarket or at the pub and be like mmm he’s hot, I’d love to suck his cock! Or, oh yeah, I’d love to have his cock in my ass. But I don’t. In fact, it’s kind of the opposite. 

When I look at a guy, I’m like nope! Because there’s nothing, no attraction, nothing makes me feel anything sexual. Nothing about them makes me feel sexually turned on.

Like, I’m not attracted to men in any way. In fact, the thought of kissing another man grosses me out big time, so it’s like, I’m actually turned off, I literally look at a men’s faces in public and think, nah I couldn’t go there.

Which frustrates the fuck out of me because I do want to go there! I do want their cock! So, I desperately wish I was attracted to men, because I think that would help me, and help make more sense about my obsession for cock.

The worst part is I don’t want to be with gay guys or feminine guys; I want them to be straight acting like me. For example, if we were having dinner somewhere or drinks at a pub, it would just look like 2 mates hanging out, like no one would look twice.

But with saying that, how the fuck do you know if a straight acting guy like me enjoys a bit of cock play with another guy? For instance, say I start talking to a bisexual tradie on the job site, but you can’t tell he’s Bisexual, how the fuck do you find out without straight out asking and then having the risk of looking like you’re gay? (not that I care if people are gay) but in the world of manly tradesman that I work in, that’s not a risk I can take.

I wish bi guys & bi curious guys could just look at each other and know they both like a bit of cock. Maybe then I might see those men differently if I know they like cock, maybe I would feel some sort of sexual attraction because we would have that secret connection knowing we are the same, and could be like, hey, wanna play with each other’s cock. But unfortunately, that’s not gonna happen, is it?

Now! Here’s where everything changes. 

If men are naked, and I could see their cock, that’s a whole different story. It’s like everything that turns me off about men (except for the kissing part) disappears, and all I see is a hot cock I can play with, (jerk, suck, fuck) and I am sexually turned on. Like intensely. It’s like there body becomes attractive, even sexy, or hot, and somehow their face isn’t a turn off anymore either and I want them, I want to touch them. I want the whole package!

It’s like what the fuck!

How fucked up is that?

How the fuck does that work?

What the fuck am I supposed to do with that mind bending shit?

How the fuck am I supposed to deal with that?