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Brief Intro

QUICK BRIEF. I’m 49yo bisexual but no one knows. I’m married. I have ADHD. I was sexually abused as a child, I’m hypersexual. I’ve struggled with addictions & drug abuse. I'm attracted to Cock not men. This is my share my mind.

Another Me

Another Me

I wish I could find another me! 


Another guy who’s mid to late 40s married & bisexual like me. Who’s a straight acting tradie type like me & wants a mate to hang out with, go camping with, go to concerts with & sometimes do sexual things with like me. 

Another guy that likes metal music like Slipknot, Pantera, Falling in Reverse & Others shit like Insane Clown Posse, Grand Daddy, Faith No More, Primus, Alice In Chains, Ministry, Kim Dracula, Korn even stuff like Butterfingers, Tzu, Hilltop Hoods & Fisher, Skrillex, even techno type music. But mainly metal.

Who enjoys doing the same things as me. Both generally and sexually. Who has a similar manscaped 6in cut cock like me,) but maybe a little bit bigger than mine). A non-hairy guy like me. Who fantasies about similar & twisted things like me. Like being in a room full of naked guys jerking, sucking & fucking their cocks & watching them cum or having 2 cocks in your ass at the same time, or freaky shit like jerking off an actual horses' cock. Who would let a dog fuck him in the ass like me. A guy who’s hypersexual like me. Who's borderline addicted to masturbation like me. Who loves watching porn like me & wants to use/try all different sex toys like me. Who's has a filthy twisted mind like me.

Who loves cocks the same as me, is fascinated with them like me, who loves looking at dick pics like me & wants to play them constantly like me. A guy who loves watching them leaking & cumming like me and loves sucking them like me. But who’s not attracted to men, just attracted to cock like me.

Who thinks Shemales are hot like me.  Because they look like women but have a cock. Who feels sexy wearing G-strings & miniskirts or sexy underwear like me. Who wants for the same things as me, like wishing they were brave enough to wear eye makeup & black nail polish in public like I want to or wanting to be open about their sexuality like I want to.

A guy who has pierced sensitive horny nipples like me. Who loves having them pinched and pulled on like me. Another me that loves a meaty pussy. A PAWG lover like me. A huge pervert like me. Who wants to party, drink beers, take ecstasy or smoke weed & listen to music like me.

Another me who loves being naked, who'd go to the nude beach, sun bake naked & be a nudist & go camping at nudist camps like me.

Another me to both be open with & talk about absolutely anything with, knowing there will never be any judgement about our thoughts & feelings or desires no matter how bad you think they may seem. Another me who understands me & just gets me.

I wish I could find another Me!

Meaty lips

 

Meaty lips (poem)

I love a meaty pussy

A set of saggy flaps 

I want to peel them open 

Pulling them right back 

I like the lips that dangle

and hang there in the breeze 

Juicy meaty vulvar

I love to suck and squeeze 

Pull and tug stretch them down 

Get them hanging low

Rub them all over my cock

Until I blow my load 

Nipple Tugging/Puller Device

 

NTPD - Nipple Tugging/Puller Device

 


When I was 18 I got my right nipple pierced and it was the best thing I ever did.

I quickly learnt about the amazing sexual pleasure that could come from nipple stimulation, it was like there was a direct connection from nipple to penis. It was like I had a button to give me an erection. If you played with my nipple piercing, I couldn’t resist, I was yours!

As good as this was and as amazing the feeling was when my nipples were tickled touched and gently pinched, I still had no idea that pain could also be pleasure. The older I got the more I would ask for my nipples to be pinched during sex right before I was about to cum but not to hard just enough to give slight pain but sometimes harder than before, bringing my orgasm to a new level I haven’t felt before.

I like the fact that because I only had the one piercing, as each nipple had a different feeling and gave a different kind of pleasure than the other.

Fast forward 30 years and I decided to get my left nipple pierced as well. Second best thing I’ve done. I’m almost obsessed with my nipples now. I want to touch them all the time, pinching tugging & twisting them, pressing my finger down on them and rotating in circular motion, flicking the tip of them. Just thinking about it gets my cock hard and leaking pre cum.

There was always one problem. I couldn’t play with both my nipples and jerk off at the same time. Then one day I was in one of those $2 shops just looking around, when I saw some key ring clips and some choker chains for dogs and it hit me! What if I attached the key ring clips to each end of the chain then connect the clip to my nipple rings? That way I could pull on the chain with one hand and to stimulate both nipples at once while I jerk off with the other hand.

So of course I bought them. 4 clips and a couple of each different size chains just in case. I must say I was excited at the thought of this idea working. I went home and attached the clips to one of the smaller chains and hooked it to my nipples and lay down on my bed. To try it for the first time. Success! One hand tugging on the chain to stimulate both nipples while my other hand tugging on my cock. It was amazing. My nipples were so horny my cock rock hard dripping with precum. The harder I pulled the chain the better it felt. It hurt so good. I couldn’t believe how good. I had never felt pleasure from pain like this before. This was something new for me and I was loving it, I didn’t want it to stop but I couldn’t hold back, the cum shot out of my cock spurting all over my stomach and chest. There was so much cum! The orgasm was so intense. My cock was throbbing like crazy I could feel it in my asshole. I had just had the best wank I’d ever had. (For now)

 

A couple of days later I thought I’d go for round 2 but this time I was going to have one of those stand-up wanks in front of the mirror, so I got the large chain I’d bought, thinking it might have a bit of weight to it, hopping that gravity might help me out a bit. The chain felt fairly heavy, and it was quite long. So, I wasn’t sure how this would go. After I got myself all revved up and my cock was hard, it was time for the nipple action. I hooked up to my nipple rings, the weight wasn’t too bad, but the chain was too long and hung down near my cock n balls and was kind of in the way. As I was jerking off my hand would hit the chain, which just wasn’t going to work. I don’t know why but I tried to looped the chain around the base of my shaft and gave a few more jerks, it felt good and a little kinky, as the chain lifted up and down with my strokes it kind of tugged at my nipples but still wasn’t what I was hoping for, so I unlooped the chain from around my shaft.

I had my head down and was slightly hunched over when I was unlooping the chain and noticed the lowest point of the chain was level with my crouch, so I was like, Hmm, I wonder if I can hooked it under and behind my balls, so I did,  then lifted my head up to look in the mirror. OH MY GOD!!! As I lifted my head, my back straightened, and the chain tightened and pulled on my nipples. It was fucking amazing! it was perfect! I had just invented a hands fee nipple tugging device! All I had to do was lean back or forward slightly to control the intensity of pleasurable pain to my nipples. I couldn’t believe how good it worked. I stood there watching myself, stroking my hot cock (I do love the look of my 6in cut my cock) seeing the chain pulling and stretching at my nipples really turned me on, I was so hard, my cock was leaking so much, and now I had a spare hand so I wiped up a nice big wad of precum onto my finger so I could lick and suck it off like it was the tip of a dick. God taste good, I love the tase of my precum it makes me want to suck a cock.

The more I jerked off, the more pressure the chain pulled at my nipples. The more I leaked, the more I tasted myself. Then I exploded, jiz shot onto the mirror then again and again, fuck me it was amazing, you would have thought something so simple could make you feel so good, beyond good, orgasmic!!

My new hands-free nipple tugging/pulling device also works laying down in bed, the more I arch my back the more it pulls, I can watch porn on my phone with one hand and jerk off with the other hand while the chain pulls on my horny nipples. This has definitely taken my self-pleasure to a whole new level I never imagined existed. 

Watch you spurt

 

Watch you spurt  (poem)



Get your cock out

Let me see 

I really want to touch it 

Get your cock out

For me please 

I really want to suck it

Cup my hand around your balls

Roll my tongue around your knob

Gently suck the tip of your cock

And slowly swallowing the head

Slide your shaft in my mouth 

Sucking as I bob

Suck and stroke your throbbing cock

I want to make you cum

I want to watch your spurting cum

Shooting out your cock

I want to watch you spurt your cum

So I can rub it on my cock

I want to watch you squirt your cum

I want it on my nipples 

I want to watch you squirt your cum

So I can lick the dribbles 

I want your hot cum everywhere 

On my cock my tits & chests 

I want your hot cum everywhere 

It really is the best 

5 guys

 

5 guys 


I would love to have a gang bang with 5 other guys, all with similar dicks, all circumcised and around 6 to 7 inches long. (Like mine). I can imagine being down on my knees while they all stand around me with all their cocks in my face, me trying to suck and jerk on all their dicks, getting them all nice and hard. 

I want to have a cock in each hand while I suck on another, then suck on the one I had in my hand and jerk on the one I was sucking, going from cock-to-cock sucking and jerking, even trying to get 2 dicks in my mouth.

I imagine getting on all fours on a small bench or coffee table while they all take turns in gently sliding their spit-soaked cocks in my horny ass, while I keep my mouth and hands full of juicy hard dick! I’ve always wanted to try having 2 cocks in my ass at the same time.

I want to feel them moving in opposite directions to each other, one going in my ass while the other is pulling outward, but not all the way out. Just leaving the head of the cock inside me then they both change directions, one moving out while the other is moving back in. (fuck yeah)

I want to know what that feels like, the thought of 2 cocks in my ass moving in opposite directions, feeling them getting quicker with each passing while I’m trying to suck and jerk off the other 3 cocks in my face, gets my cock hard.

My cock would be so hard and dripping with so much juice. I have no doubt with 3 dicks to suck on and my ass experiencing 2 cocks would send me over the edge and make me shoot my load. Making my ass pulsatingly clench the 2 hot cocks fucking my ass.

But when I cum I want the 3 cocks I’m sucking and jerking off to cum at the same time. Shooting their hot jis all over my face and chest. I want to keep sucking, tasting all of their juices. I want to rub their cum all over my face, tits and cock. Hopefully my pulsating asshole makes the 2 cocks in my ass want to cum. I would quickly jump off their dicks, spin around and jerk their jis onto my dick, watching it get soaked in hot cum and rubbing it in to my cock.

 I could imagine how awesome my stretched ass would feel, throbbing from such delight and me covered in 5 guys cum.

So now I can’t help imagining all of us having a shower afterwards and me rubbing soap on 5 guys and their cocks and them starting to get hard again and now I’m back on my knees……. Oh jeez here I go again. 

(yes, I did jerk off and cum while writing this one)

 

You know what (poem)

You know what makes me horny

What makes my soft cock rise

It’s not the thought of pussy

It’s the thought of fucking guys 

The thought of sucking dick

To watch them shoot their cum

The thought of big hard dicks

Gently sliding in my bum

Yes, that’s what makes me horny

It might come as a shock

That what I really want

Is to suck and fuck big cocks

Gentle Pinch

 

Gentle pinch (poem)

Gently pinch my nipples 

And give a little twist 

I get so fucking horny

The feeling is just bliss

It makes my cock so hard 

Pre cum starts to drip

I really love the taste 

As I put some on my lip

I’d lick it from my cock

If I could reach my knob

Even just the thought 

Makes my hard cock throb

I pinch a little harder 

That line of good and hurt

The feeling to intense 

As I watch my hot cum spurt.

Anal Curious Part 1

 
Anal Curious Part 1


When I was around 18yo I became curious as to why gay men apparently enjoyed anal, or more so, the fact that gay men took it in the ass and liked it. 


I figured there must be something I didn’t know. It must feel good. But of course, being a typical 18yo guy brought up in a world where all things gay are wrong and unnatural, and the fact that I’d never had any kind of sexual feelings or attractions or interest in any kind of gay interaction. In fact, back then anything that could be considered non heterosexual I would not have entertained. 


But again, I couldn’t shake the thought that anal must feel good or surly gay men wouldn’t do it. Which I’m sure made me even more curious. Curious enough to the point that I would actually try it.


So, the day came where I thought I’d try fingering my ass. With absolutely no idea what I was doing. I didn’t even consider lubrication.


But there I was trying to get my finger in my ass with no lube not even any spit or anything, nothing. It didn’t go so well, it hurt, it was awkward and so nonsexual, I was just doing it to see what it felt like. And so far not so good. So I left it for another day.


I tried again but this time I was masturbating and had some kind of lubricant, while I was stroking away, I tried to push a finger in my ass. It wasn’t easy, I was tense, and my asshole was tight, and even though I had some sort of lubricant on my finger I had to force it in so it still kind of hurt. I may be stuck it in and out 2 or 3 times, but it definitely wasn’t a good feeling. So I left my ass alone and just jerked off.


I don’t know how long it was before I tried again weeks months or a year, but I do know at some point before I tried again, I went to a Sexpo exhibition, and they gave me like a show bag with fee stuff in it.


There was a little vibrator about 4 inches long and about as thick as my thumb. Yep, you guessed it, that little fucker was going in my ass.


One night after a few beers I was jerking off and remembered the little toy, I turned it on and put the tip on my asshole. The vibration tickled my hole, it felt good. I’m guessing it’s because I’d be drinking, I must’ve been more relaxed, I gave it a little push, it felt a little weird, but good. I pushed it a bit more and it was all the way inside me, it felt good in a weird way, but still good.


When I pulled it out… OMG that felt really good! Like REALLY good!. So again, I push it in, weird good, pulled it out, really good. I think I was onto something, I think I might have worked it out. So, I kept going and then I did something different, I must have changed the angle or something but…. And I’m guessing it hit the g-spot, because a little bit of cum shot out, wholly shit what was that what did I just do?


I kept going in out in out in out then BAM again a bit of cum. I had no idea what was happening or that it could even happen. But it did.

 

I'm like, I knew I was missing something, I knew there was a reason gay guys had anal sex.


I moved the vibrator around in my ass changing the angle trying to find the spot that was making me cum a little. Then WOAH! there it was, the tip of the vibe buzzed against my prostate and cum just dribbled out of me. I couldn’t believe what was happening. The pushing against my prostate, along with vibrations and the feeling of the cum dribbling out of me like a tap was amazing! it was a whole new experience I’d never had before. And I liked it… a lot. Right then I knew this was just the beginning of my future exploration into pleasuring myself via my asshole. 

Buzzing Buddy

 
Buzzing buddy (poem)


I bought a vibrating butt plug

It has a remote for easy use 

I just can’t wait to try it in my ass

I hope it’s not too loose 

It has 10 different settings 

To buzz my horny bum

I hope it vibes my prostate good

And makes me shoot my cum

I might pop on my cock ring

For a bit of extra pleasure

Get myself nice and hard

Before I slide in my new treasure

My new buzzing buddy

My humming little friend

My tantalising anal toy

In to my ass I’ll send

Mary Had A

 

Mary Had A (poem)

Mary had a great big cock

She asked if I could suck it?

I did at first before she burst

I just had to fuck it.