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QUICK BRIEF. I’m 49yo bisexual but no one knows. I’m married. I have ADHD. I was sexually abused as a child, I’m hypersexual. I’ve struggled with addictions & drug abuse. I'm attracted to Cock not men. This is a space to share my mind with the world.

Shaven

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Dicks Dicks Dicks

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Feel the Stretch

 


Ever since I found out there was a button in my butt that made cum leak out of my dick even without an erection I was hooked. I wanted to learn more, I wanted to get good at it. I wanted that feeling I got the first time I found it.

So over time I would play with my ass more often and realised it wasn’t that easy to hit the spot and there were more things at play than just sticking something in my ass and hitting a cum button. Things like mood, mindset, relaxation levels & timing, all came into the equation. Sometimes It was amazing and sometimes it was a non-event.

 But something else happened, I started to enjoy the stretching feeling of my hole and for a while it became more about the feeling of my asshole being stretched open and less about hitting the right spot.

That’s when I started trying to stick different things in my ass to feel the stretching. I would always be drunk. And would start off by having a wank to get myself horny & hard. I didn’t really have anything in the way of sex toys except for the little 4 inch vibrator I got for free and a skinny 6 inch vibrator, (which I can’t remember where or when I got that), so I would have to find things around the house that were thicker and shaped right like the handle of a spatula or the handle of a hair brush or a beer bottle or stubby.

I would always start with my little 4 inch and 6 inch vibrators then onto thicker things. The first few times it was a beer bottle, but the neck was too long and would go too deep without giving me the stretching sensation I wanted. Another time I tried a VB stubby, but the neck was just too wide to quick and It would hit the bones around my hole and only the mouth piece would go in. I use a Carlton cold stubby a few times but after a while it too needed to go to deep for me to be able to feel my hole stretching. I don’t really know why I liked the feeling of my asshole being stretched.

One day I saw a big thick pink dildo on the road, I quickly turned the car around pulled up leaned out the car and picked it up and sped off. I was so excited because I knew I was going to fuck it. And fuck it I did. It was quite big and If I wasn’t relaxed enough, it would hurt going in. But by God did it feel good coming out but I always had to work up to it, I could never just go straight to fucking Mr pink. He was just too big for my young virgin ass.

Now 20 years on I no longer have the original Mr Pink, but I do have the Green Machine,

which is a bit bigger and thicker than the original Mr Pink and I can take it straight away, as long as I relax & work the head slowly and gently into my hole, I don’t need to work up to it. 

I do, however, have a Mr Pink 2.0


which has a smaller head than the Green Machine, but the shaft has a thicker section that lets me feel the stretch. It stretches my ass so good it makes my hole gape when I pull it out of me.

Sometimes when my hole is gaping, I’ll squat down & put my hand under my ball and slip 2 fingers in my ass from the front & reach my other hand around behind me and slip another 2 fingers inside me and pull in opposite directions stretching my hole open even more, just to get that feeling.

The weirdest part is I’m not really doing it sexually, like I’m not doing it as part of jerking off or to have an orgasm, it’s just for the pleasure, for the feeling of it, the feeling of my hole stretching open, kind of like getting a shoulder massage it feels fucking good, but it’s not always sexual. Haha, so it’s an asshole stretching massage🤦‍♂️

Haha, I think I’d pay a professional to do that for me. I can actually imagine lying on a table with my legs in stirrups, while someone wearing latex gloves and a heap of lube stretching away at my hole. I’d probably end up with a fist in my ass. Oh god, I think I should stop now. 😂🤣

 

(As you can see, I don’t really know what direction things will go in when I write. But when I write I learn & discover things about myself or what it is that I’m doing or feeling as I’m writing.)

Watch you spurt

 Watch you spurt 



Get your cock out

Let me see 

I really want to touch it 

Get your cock out

For me please 

I really want to suck it

Cup my hand around your balls

Roll my tongue around your knob

Gently suck the tip of your cock

And slowly swallowing the head

Slide your shaft in my mouth 

Sucking as I bob

Suck and stroke your throbbing cock

I want to make you cum

I want to watch your spurting cum

Shooting out your cock

I want to watch you spurt your cum

So I can rub it on my cock


I want to watch you squirt your cum

I want it on my nipples 

I want to watch you squirt your cum

So I can lick the dribbles 

I want your hot cum everywhere 

On my cock my tits & chests 

I want your hot cum everywhere 

It really is the best 


Cum watching

 

Cum watching 

How good does seeing cum leak or shoot out of a cock look? It’s such an amazing thing, I could watch ejaculation all day.


The way leaky cocks just dribble out a constant stream of cum for ages with little spouts of pressure pumping the flow making the stream of hot goo slightly thicker at times. Watching it dribble all the way down the shaft and onto the balls. It’s so fucking awesome.

Unlike the shooter cock. Which is just as awesome, if not more awesome, I especially love the way it can shoot out and hit you, coat you. I love the way there is like a little mini pre squirt first, clearing out the pre-cum from its shaft, to make way for the grand finale, and then BAM!! the cock explodes and cum shoots out with such awesome force. How the cock throbs and pulsates as it fires its hot thick streams of jis one shot after another, the way it looks leaving the cocks eye is so amazing I just love it.

Just like leaky cocks, I could watch shooter cocks erupting all day too, as I just love seeing cocks cum. I do however like the fact that a shooter cock can aim and spurt a little cum here and there, some for my face, some for my nipples and some for my cock. 

Especially for my cock. I love the thought of another man’s cum all over my hard cock, using it as lubrication to stroke myself. I’m getting sidetracked now.

I just think the way men cum, like how it happens, the whole design of it is just amazing, and magical, and fun. It’s such a shame we can only cum for a few seconds and then it’s all over, and add to that, there’s a fucking non avoidable down time before we can even get hard again let alone cum again.

Imagine we came for like a whole minute! Pumping out hot jis for a minute! And we didn’t lose our erection afterwards, and we could cum again in like 5 minutes time for another whole minute, and the only reason to stop is from exhaustion or because you’re satisfied, not because you can’t cum anymore. OMG there would be so much cum. It’s probably a good thing we can’t, otherwise I would probably, no, DEFINITELY do nothing else but jerk off to watch my cock cum. Or watching another guy cuming, I’d be like “again again” don’t stop! “Cum again cum again” hahaha. So yeah, I love watching cocks cum! It’s fucking hot!! & Amazing!!!

Hungry

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Lick You Limp

 

Lick You Limp

I'd like to lick your limp dick

Until it's nice and stiff

Then take the whole thing in my mouth 

Down my throat your knob would sink

Then pump it in and out

Sucking hard upon the tip

Until my mouth is full of cum

As I slurp and slop and sip 

Keep it held in my mouth

No longer throbbing on the brink

Then keep on licking on your cock

As it whimpers back to limp


Make it cum

 

Make it cum

 

Touch it take it

Grip it feel it

Hold it wheel it

Clasp it clutch it

Pull it jerk it

Stroke it work it 

Rub it tug it 

Yank it wank it

Make it cum

PAWG

 

PAWG


A luscious bouncing booty

A sexy slapping moon

A pretty clapping clacker

A gorgeous gatey goon

 

A beautiful big bad ass

A raging randy rump

A rounded thickened thigh

A lovely lady lump 

 

A sultry shaking shag

A perfect pounding peach

A devilish derrière

A set of saucy cheeks 

 

A titillating tail

A tantalising tush

A fabulous full fanny

A killer cool caboose

 

A robustious raunchy rear

A shiny shapely pearl 

A bountiful blissful bun

A fantastic phat ass white girl

Mr Mushroom

 

Mr Mushroom

 

When i was 12yo I used to go around my neighbourhood knocking on doors offering to wash people’s cars or mow their lawns for cash. This one guy paid me $5 to wash his car which was pretty good in back in 1988.

So of course, I went back a week or so later hoping to make another quick 5 quid. He was like yeah sure, of course you can, how about I give you $10, and you give me a hand with some stuff I need to do in the shed after you wash the car? Now I’m thinking $10 is better than $5 & being a naive 12yo why the hell would I turn it down. So I washed the car and helped him in the shed, he asked me questions about my life and he found out things like my age where I lived and that I only live with my mum and sister, we talked about things I like to do, like riding my BMX & building things and that I was currently building a billycart. Oh really, he said, well if you need to borrow some tools or would like some help, you’re welcome bring it here and use the shed.

I don’t remember if it was the next weekend or a few weeks later, (but knowing me it was most likely the next weekend) I took the billycart around to get some help to finish it. I wasn’t aware to begin with but every now and again he would brush his hand across my crotch or position himself so my hand would rub past his dick, or he’d get behind me slightly pushing or rubbing his crotch against my ass.

Now this was obviously turning him on, but I was totally oblivious to what was going on, until he got an erection. He rubbed it past my hand, and I noticed my hand touched something, but kind of dismissed it. But I think at the same time my instinct or something switched on. like I became aware that, that probably wasn’t right. I remember I was standing on a little step thing that helped me be a better height to use the vise on the work bench. He stood behind me “to help” and press his penis against my ass, slightly moving around. I could feel his dick was hard.

I felt very uncomfortable and kind of a bit scare. Which was clearly my instincts screaming at me that this was wrong. But seeing I was only 12yo I really wasn’t sure what I was feeling. So, I ignored it, because I wanted to build the billy cart. I don’t remember how much longer it took to finish the cart that day, but we did. But that’s just the beginning.

It must have been a Sunday, because he convinced me to come around before school the next day to help him with some massage practice for $50. I don’t remember the story he told me, but it was some kind of bullshit about massage training for kids or something like that. Whatever it was clearly I believed him. Plus let’s be real $50 back then was like $200 to a kid.

Anyway, I rocked up at like 7:30 in the morning, I remember he had a blue collared shirt on and dark dress pants. He invited me in; we went to the lounge room and sat on the couch. Again, I remember the conversation details, but I ended up lying face down on the floor and he was on his knees beside me rubbing my back and shoulders and buttcheeks. After a few minutes he put his leg over me and straddled my ass, he kept massaging my back and shoulders but now he was rubbing his cock on my ass crack.

I could feel his dick getting hard, but to be honest I hadn’t hit puberty yet so I haven’t played with my dick yet, so I had no idea about wanking or that dicks were used for anything else except having a wee. Anyway, somehow, he convinced me to watch him masturbate. I remember sitting on the floor watching him play with his cock, absolutely fascinated. 

His dick was only like 4 and a half to 5 inches long with this amazing shiny purple mushroom head, I can still see it. I was mesmerised, I couldn’t take my eyes of this amazing shiny purple mushroom that started to leak some sort of clear liquid, which when he would rub it around on his big purple knob, it seemed to make it better for him, like I could see or sense his enjoyment level rising when he did. He gave me some kind of warning that stuff was going to spurt out the end of his dick soon, and boy did it! this white gooey liquid shot out of his cock and not just once or twice but 3 or 4 times, it was like a fucking water pistol! What the actual fuck just happened! What was that! What did I just see? He let go of his purple gun and I saw his dick throbbing like it was trying to pump out more of that stuff. It was the strangest most confusing yet interesting thing I’d ever seen.

I kind of knew or felt that what just happened was wrong, now I don’t mean seeing masturbation or a dick cum for the first time, I mean the part where I was pretty much in a sexually abusive situation right there. But I was a gullible 12yo boy with no father figure. How was I to know how good or bad this was. So he cleaned himself up and gave me the $50 and went to school. Was that the end you ask? No, that was a pretty easy 50 bucks?

So a week later and no money left, here I am, unannounced, 7:30 in the morning knocking on Mr Purple Mushrooms door. When he answered the door I said can I do anything for another $50. Yeah, maybe he said, come in. We went inside to the lounge room and sat down, he told me how helpful It was for his massage stuff the last time I was there and if he could just practice massaging this time, he would give me another $50. Of course I agreed, I mean that’s why I was there right? So again, there I was face down on the floor in my undies, but this time he was in his undies too, same back and shoulders rub, but this time he maneuverer my undies down and was giving my ass cheeks a rub and squeezing them in a way to pull them apart.

I was uncomfortable with what was happening as it was more groppey this time. He had straddled me from the start. He ran his hands up my back to my shoulders then all the way down to my ass cheeks and gently squeeze them moving in a circular motion so they would spread apart, up to my shoulders then down again. 

He must have popped his cock out the side of his undies because when he moved up I felt his raw cock rest between my parted ass cheeks.


He kept massaging and moving his cock between my cheeks. I could feel it growing harder.  After a few minutes it was solid, I felt him hop off me,I looked over my shoulder and saw he was getting up. I rolled over and sat up on my knees, he had taken his undies off and stood there with his stiff dick hovering above my face

He was gently squeezing & pulling at his balls which made his magic mushroom move up and down. 

 

A glistening pearl of pre-cum was forming on the eye of his cock. As it got bigger, I thought it was going to drop on the floor, but it just hung there about an inch long, clinging on to the tip of his shiny mushroom. I was astounded. I couldn’t believe what I was seeing I had no idea a dick could do that! He asked me if I wanted to touch it and assured me that it was okay if I did, but I was speechless. I just shook my head no, absolutely mesmerised by his meat right there in front of my face. 

He sat down on the couch with his legs spread wide and stroked his cock, coatings it in his dripping juice. 

I could tell he was enjoying this even more than last time. He touched it differently than last time, not just wanking it but holding his balls I one hand, forcing the skin on his cock to be tight. I couldn’t see the whole length of his rod and the full shape of his swollen mushroom head, it was so shiny. For a while he gently ran his fingers up and down his shaft and over his knob, collecting his gooey lube as he passed the tip and rubbing it over his member. I was Captivated by his cock. It’s going to happen again, he said, it’s going to spurt! Like it was a really rare occurrence. Hypnotised, I didn’t want to miss it. I wanted to see him cum again. I wanted to see the magic goo exploding out of him again. he gave it a few really fast strokes, Here It comes he said, here it comes, Still holding onto his ball he stopped stroking his cock, took his hand off his throbbing shiny purple mushroom, it was pointing straight at me. 

Ughhh!! he groaned, at the same time a hot stream of this bizarre magic goo shot out and hit me on my chest. 

I couldn’t believe how warm it was, then another squirt landed on my leg, he let go of his balls, his dick stood straight up to his belly, throbbing and pulsing, pumping out more cum that dribbled down his shaft to his large ball sack. This thing was bouncing up and down from excitement, he put his hand back around his cum soaked shaft and stroked it some more, I still remember the squelching sound of all that cum as his hand glided up and down over his purple head, I watched his cock soften and shrink down in size. He got up, told me to wait there and left the room. He came back with a tea towel for me to wipe his jis off my leg and chest and handed me a $50 note. As I got dressed he thanked me a told me some crap about how great I was and it was amazing to make something so special like that happen and that nobody should know about it. He showed me to the front door and I went off to school with a bunch of cash and mixed feelings. 

 

The last visit. 

I make this quick. Because it was pretty quick. So one morning I used my last $20 from my jis journey and bought a Rambo knife of a mate, I was pretty excited about it but I was also now out of cash, so yep, you guessed it I went straight to see Mr Mushroom. But this time I had a plan. I was only going to let him massage my back and shoulders and that’s it. No cock watching, no ass rub. Just a massage. After all I had a big fuck off knife right! He invited me in. We sat down and I showed him the cool knife I just bought and how you could unscrew the compass on the end of the handle and sore things in the handle, things like matches and a bit of fishing line, you know survival stuff. I told him I only wanted a massage nothing more, which he agreed to. I took off my shirt and laid down. My hand was on the knife on the floor, with my arm folded in front of me using them as a pillow for my head He knelt down beside me and started rubbing my shoulders and massaging my back. After about a minute, I felt him try to push my pants down a bit then a few seconds later it happened again. That was it, I rolled over and sat up holding the knife pointing at him and said, don’t try anything or I’ll use this fucking knife. He put his hands up and was like woah woah ok ok, then said something like, i think you might be confused, I was just trying to be nice, I think you should just go now. So I did. That was it, I left that day with no money and that was the last time I saw Mr Shiny Purple Mushroom Head.