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QUICK BRIEF. I’m 49yo bisexual but no one knows. I’m married. I have ADHD. I was sexually abused as a child, I’m hypersexual. I’ve struggled with addictions & drug abuse. I'm attracted to Cock not men. This is a space to share my mind with the world.

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Feel the Stretch

 


Ever since I found out there was a button in my butt that made cum leak out of my dick even without an erection I was hooked. I wanted to learn more, I wanted to get good at it. I wanted that feeling I got the first time I found it.

So over time I would play with my ass more often and realised it wasn’t that easy to hit the spot and there were more things at play than just sticking something in my ass and hitting a cum button. Things like mood, mindset, relaxation levels & timing, all came into the equation. Sometimes It was amazing and sometimes it was a non-event.

 But something else happened, I started to enjoy the stretching feeling of my hole and for a while it became more about the feeling of my asshole being stretched open and less about hitting the right spot.

That’s when I started trying to stick different things in my ass to feel the stretching. I would always be drunk. And would start off by having a wank to get myself horny & hard. I didn’t really have anything in the way of sex toys except for the little 4 inch vibrator I got for free and a skinny 6 inch vibrator, (which I can’t remember where or when I got that), so I would have to find things around the house that were thicker and shaped right like the handle of a spatula or the handle of a hair brush or a beer bottle or stubby.

I would always start with my little 4 inch and 6 inch vibrators then onto thicker things. The first few times it was a beer bottle, but the neck was too long and would go too deep without giving me the stretching sensation I wanted. Another time I tried a VB stubby, but the neck was just too wide to quick and It would hit the bones around my hole and only the mouth piece would go in. I use a Carlton cold stubby a few times but after a while it too needed to go to deep for me to be able to feel my hole stretching. I don’t really know why I liked the feeling of my asshole being stretched.

One day I saw a big thick pink dildo on the road, I quickly turned the car around pulled up leaned out the car and picked it up and sped off. I was so excited because I knew I was going to fuck it. And fuck it I did. It was quite big and If I wasn’t relaxed enough, it would hurt going in. But by God did it feel good coming out but I always had to work up to it, I could never just go straight to fucking Mr pink. He was just too big for my young virgin ass.

Now 20 years on I no longer have the original Mr Pink, but I do have the Green Machine,

which is a bit bigger and thicker than the original Mr Pink and I can take it straight away, as long as I relax & work the head slowly and gently into my hole, I don’t need to work up to it. 

I do, however, have a Mr Pink 2.0


which has a smaller head than the Green Machine, but the shaft has a thicker section that lets me feel the stretch. It stretches my ass so good it makes my hole gape when I pull it out of me.

Sometimes when my hole is gaping, I’ll squat down & put my hand under my ball and slip 2 fingers in my ass from the front & reach my other hand around behind me and slip another 2 fingers inside me and pull in opposite directions stretching my hole open even more, just to get that feeling.

The weirdest part is I’m not really doing it sexually, like I’m not doing it as part of jerking off or to have an orgasm, it’s just for the pleasure, for the feeling of it, the feeling of my hole stretching open, kind of like getting a shoulder massage it feels fucking good, but it’s not always sexual. Haha, so it’s an asshole stretching massage🤦‍♂️

Haha, I think I’d pay a professional to do that for me. I can actually imagine lying on a table with my legs in stirrups, while someone wearing latex gloves and a heap of lube stretching away at my hole. I’d probably end up with a fist in my ass. Oh god, I think I should stop now. 😂🤣

 

(As you can see, I don’t really know what direction things will go in when I write. But when I write I learn & discover things about myself or what it is that I’m doing or feeling as I’m writing.)

Watch you spurt

 Watch you spurt 



Get your cock out

Let me see 

I really want to touch it 

Get your cock out

For me please 

I really want to suck it

Cup my hand around your balls

Roll my tongue around your knob

Gently suck the tip of your cock

And slowly swallowing the head

Slide your shaft in my mouth 

Sucking as I bob

Suck and stroke your throbbing cock

I want to make you cum

I want to watch your spurting cum

Shooting out your cock

I want to watch you spurt your cum

So I can rub it on my cock


I want to watch you squirt your cum

I want it on my nipples 

I want to watch you squirt your cum

So I can lick the dribbles 

I want your hot cum everywhere 

On my cock my tits & chests 

I want your hot cum everywhere 

It really is the best 


Cum watching

 

Cum watching 

How good does seeing cum leak or shoot out of a cock look? It’s such an amazing thing, I could watch ejaculation all day.


The way leaky cocks just dribble out a constant stream of cum for ages with little spouts of pressure pumping the flow making the stream of hot goo slightly thicker at times. Watching it dribble all the way down the shaft and onto the balls. It’s so fucking awesome.

Unlike the shooter cock. Which is just as awesome, if not more awesome, I especially love the way it can shoot out and hit you, coat you. I love the way there is like a little mini pre squirt first, clearing out the pre-cum from its shaft, to make way for the grand finale, and then BAM!! the cock explodes and cum shoots out with such awesome force. How the cock throbs and pulsates as it fires its hot thick streams of jis one shot after another, the way it looks leaving the cocks eye is so amazing I just love it.

Just like leaky cocks, I could watch shooter cocks erupting all day too, as I just love seeing cocks cum. I do however like the fact that a shooter cock can aim and spurt a little cum here and there, some for my face, some for my nipples and some for my cock. 

Especially for my cock. I love the thought of another man’s cum all over my hard cock, using it as lubrication to stroke myself. I’m getting sidetracked now.

I just think the way men cum, like how it happens, the whole design of it is just amazing, and magical, and fun. It’s such a shame we can only cum for a few seconds and then it’s all over, and add to that, there’s a fucking non avoidable down time before we can even get hard again let alone cum again.

Imagine we came for like a whole minute! Pumping out hot jis for a minute! And we didn’t lose our erection afterwards, and we could cum again in like 5 minutes time for another whole minute, and the only reason to stop is from exhaustion or because you’re satisfied, not because you can’t cum anymore. OMG there would be so much cum. It’s probably a good thing we can’t, otherwise I would probably, no, DEFINITELY do nothing else but jerk off to watch my cock cum. Or watching another guy cuming, I’d be like “again again” don’t stop! “Cum again cum again” hahaha. So yeah, I love watching cocks cum! It’s fucking hot!! & Amazing!!!